Time to Say Goodbye

Well not quite yet, but in 7 days time I will be leaving Tanah Rata and a whole little life I've got going for myself. I'm going to miss this place, chai in the Highlander at 2am, smuggling various local spirits (mainly Stanley, the bastard!) into the Jungle Bar, random conversations hanging out on the sofas, the very occassional journey into the actual jungle...

This place is always going to hold some very special memories for me. It's here I met Bel, Winter and Liam, they have turned into great mates and my life plan has changed dramatically because of these three people. Australia was never part of my plan until Bel and Winter came into my life and now it feels like one of the most exciting things about this journey. I say journey in the normal sense of the word, in that I am travelling and journeying to places, not the emotional bull crap that journey now defines.

Bella and Deera are a whole other kettle of fish. They're like sisters and best mates and I am so determined to keep them in my life. I've never felt this protective over people, which is strange because they're so independent and in most ways have their head screwed on more than me! It's so sweet that they come to me with problems, tell me all the gossip, even if it is rather delayed, and I don't think I've been hugged as much in my whole adult life as I have by these guys here...

There is one more person here who has changed me, we don't see each other often, haven't been able to see each other for a couple of weeks. But he is an amazing person and like everyone else I'm glad I've had him in my life here even if it took me a while to notice just how special he is.

I'm terrible at goodbyes, it's kind of my own fault for getting so attached to people here. Even Jue the Muslim girl I work with who came across as really mean when I first started working with her has turned out to be really sweet. She said she is going to miss me when I leave and wants me to come back, I kind of really want to because she's pregnant and her baby is going to be bloody gorgeous! I don't know if coming back would be too hard, I'm trying not to plan too much so it could happen but it's pretty unlikely...